Saved from Suicide
I had tried to commit suicide a few times since I was 7 due to not being loved and not knowing the reason for life. I tried by taking an overdose of pills and alcohol and banging my head off a stone wall, hoping it would bust and I would die. I even tried cycling out in front of a car, because of the emptiness.
When I was 17 years of age I asked myself the questions about life and
about religion. Religion wasn’t working. Like every other person my age that was made to go to Mass. I was going to Mass repeating prayers, which I couldn’t understand. I saw hypocrites. People who would act all holy on a Sunday at Mass, and then step out the door and back to their own ways, taking His name in vain.
I knew it was not right because if I was God I’d get sick of hearing the same prayers. I asked myself a question which was going to determine if I was going to commit suicide that day or not. This was my question: If Jesus didn’t die for the sins of the world then what is the point of life? If there is nothing after this what is the point?
I was afraid of death but I wanted to know what happens when you die. I was thinking that I would just go in the ground but if that was the case there was no point for me to live and keep going on with the hurt. So
I started praying to Jesus from my heart, not repetitive prayers like mass. I started reading a small Gideon Bible with an index in the front of the book with scriptures for loneliness, anxiety, worry, upset, hurt or fear; I believe the Lord used all those Scriptures to keep me from committing suicide.
I had heard of born–again Christians but I was told by lots they were a cult, stay away from them, but I was really confused, because I was brought up in a Catholic–Protestant home and I wondered: how can both be right?
Then my aunt shared the Gospel of Jesus Christ with me, in tears and she told me how Jesus saved her. I said to myself, “This ain’t lies!” and I prayed “Lord, if this is a cult keep me from it, if not Save me!” When I prayed for the Lord to save me, it was as if I saw Jesus saying, “Come Follow Me! Not religion, not man, not denomination, Come follow me, William!”
I tell you, the decision I made that day changed my life when I decided to follow Jesus. I would be in Hell today only for God’s grace and mercy in my life. I know that a psychiatrist is not the answer, Jesus Christ is the answer call upon Him He will save you. He will give you a new heart new desires and life!
When I was 17 years of age I asked myself the questions about life and
about religion. Religion wasn’t working. Like every other person my age that was made to go to Mass. I was going to Mass repeating prayers, which I couldn’t understand. I saw hypocrites. People who would act all holy on a Sunday at Mass, and then step out the door and back to their own ways, taking His name in vain.
I knew it was not right because if I was God I’d get sick of hearing the same prayers. I asked myself a question which was going to determine if I was going to commit suicide that day or not. This was my question: If Jesus didn’t die for the sins of the world then what is the point of life? If there is nothing after this what is the point?
I was afraid of death but I wanted to know what happens when you die. I was thinking that I would just go in the ground but if that was the case there was no point for me to live and keep going on with the hurt. So
I started praying to Jesus from my heart, not repetitive prayers like mass. I started reading a small Gideon Bible with an index in the front of the book with scriptures for loneliness, anxiety, worry, upset, hurt or fear; I believe the Lord used all those Scriptures to keep me from committing suicide.
I had heard of born–again Christians but I was told by lots they were a cult, stay away from them, but I was really confused, because I was brought up in a Catholic–Protestant home and I wondered: how can both be right?
Then my aunt shared the Gospel of Jesus Christ with me, in tears and she told me how Jesus saved her. I said to myself, “This ain’t lies!” and I prayed “Lord, if this is a cult keep me from it, if not Save me!” When I prayed for the Lord to save me, it was as if I saw Jesus saying, “Come Follow Me! Not religion, not man, not denomination, Come follow me, William!”
I tell you, the decision I made that day changed my life when I decided to follow Jesus. I would be in Hell today only for God’s grace and mercy in my life. I know that a psychiatrist is not the answer, Jesus Christ is the answer call upon Him He will save you. He will give you a new heart new desires and life!